In the life of a medical student.....

Medical school is difficult. period.
But, medical school in Ramzan is waaaay difficult.
We have our tests going on. For heavens' sake, what combination is Ramzan and exams?
I get up tired everyday. Sleeping at 2am and then waking up again at 3. 30 am for Sehri. Sleeping again and then waking up at 7.00 am is a hard routine to follow if you want to keep your spirirts up. Not that I'm complaining. Fasting is fun in the sense that it makes me feel special and all sacrificing- like. Its the exams at this time that i hate. Sleep deprivation and hypoglycemia combine to make me walk around like a zombie. :( .
During my Anatomy substage yesterday, I actually uttered entirely senseless words and the teacher was like: 'huh?'
In my Histology OSPE today, I identified the slides perfectly well but then somehow forgot to write the answers down.
How pathetic could it get?
*sigh*
must pull myself together.

As Gossip Girl goes:

xoxo,
Maham.

Faces that people have.

20 years of life. lots of best friends. 10 different schools. 4 different cities.

all this experience. I was bound to learn something.

sadly, what i have learned all this time does not leave me with a good impression of mankind. not that i'm a saint or selfless. still.

people would lie through their teeth to you. they would hide their true emotions and judge you every moment. they would make friends with popular people only and treat others like dirt (even if only in their mind). they would consider friends as people who are to be wrapped around your finger and used when necessary. they would do things which hurt you but are so very mean and petty that you would feel disgusted fighting over. they would go to other people and shed crocodile tears to gain sympathy. people would set criteria of conduct and friendship for you that they themselves would completely ignore. they would steal your ideas and thought processes and present them as their own.

people like others begging to them.they would plot and plan things in such details that it would seem like a hugely difficult feat to accomplish if you thought about it.

WHY??

That's the only question i'm asking. The only question i really need a reply to.